Leigh i have been doing a lot of thinking about you and how much i miss you. they say that when you lose a loved one it gets easier and i guess maybe it does but there are so many days that i would love to just see you, hear from you anything. i miss you so very much and i am trying so hard to live my life so that you would be proud of me. i feel like there are a lot of ways i have let you down. i am trying to help cj and Luke turn their lives around but they are grown and are making their own decisions i pray that you are watching them and if you could help me to help them. i love you so much Leigh and you have been the best thing that has ever happened to me i miss everything about you. i just wanted to talk to you a bit and let you know that i still think of you everyday and i love you more than i could ever say.