Today is Thursday March 20th, 2008 it has been almost (3) months since my baby sister passed away and I feel like it was yesterday. I went to her grave site for the first time this past Sunday to bring her Easter flowers and to talk to her. I mean I talk to her everyday. It's just that I have no memory of the funeral at all nor do I remember going to the burial site, do finally on Sunday I realized that I had to go not only out of respect for my baby sister, but for me to acknowledge that she is really gone. I have to say that was probably one of the hardest things I have ever done. To this day I pick up the phone to call her everyday for something that has happened that day when I would normally call to talk or to just get her input of a particular situation. To this day I hope that she would just walk through my door and tell me this whole thing has been a mistake and that she did not die. You see my sister was the world to me and I just cannot seem to let her go...If anyone can tell me how to be able to just let go please let me know..All I do know is that a huge part of me is missing and I don't believe I will ever get it back...Leigh I just want to let you know what a blessing you were to me and how very proud I am that you are my sister. I hope and pray that I will see you again on the other side because I cannot imagine just never seeing your beautiful face ever again. I love you Leigh and I pray that you are with me every day to keep me in line and so I can feel you around me. I miss you baby sis and I just wish I had more time to have let you know that I love you more than the words I love you even mean...Love sheryl