Leigh i have been doing a lot of thinking about you and how much i miss you. they say that when you lose a loved one it gets easier and i guess maybe it does but there are so many days that i would love to just see you, hear from you anything. i miss you so very much and i am trying so hard to live my life so that you would be proud of me. i feel like there are a lot of ways i have let you down. i am trying to help cj and Luke turn their lives around but they are grown and are making their own decisions i pray that you are watching them and if you could help me to help them. i love you so much Leigh and you have been the best thing that has ever happened to me i miss everything about you. i just wanted to talk to you a bit and let you know that i still think of you everyday and i love you more than i could ever say.

Leigh was a remarkable woman whose memory continues to inspire & direct my path as I honor her with my work here on Earth. Thanks Sheryl for reminding us ...

hi leigh i have been thinking of you a lot lately and i think it is because it is your birthday coming up. I really miss you so much and i wish you were here to see my grandson, leigh he is awsome you would love him although i am sure you have seen him even before he was here. guess what i have both of your sons here visiting today and they are doing great leigh we all miss you so much and i am looking forward to the day i get to see you again where we will never be apart again. well i was just checking in and i pray that you are still guiding me to do the right thing also please help me to be there for Luke and CJ they are really good young men Leigh you would be proud of them help me to help them we are planning on coming up to see you on mothers day and your birthday. well i just wanted to say i love you so much Leigh and i think of you everyday. my heart is with you always. I Love you Leigh love sissy

Leigh just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts today and everyday...You have had more of an impact on the people that love you so much, and have lead many to Christ. Thank you for the gift of having you in my life and for your love..I LOVE WITH EVERYTHING IN ME LOVE BIG SISSY

Leigh, Questions always going through my mind: How can she be missed any more after all this time? Often I say its been six months, a year,... How can you still miss her so much? Answers: The impact Leigh left on my heart will be forever. Her smile and her voice echo thru my head as they did when you were here with me. Flash backs--seeing you walk, seeing you run, seeing you stand so very strong in all you believed and never saying I quit, I cannot or I give up. Words like those were not tolerated by you! You died the way you lived, strong to the end never giving up. Reading and learning trying to make each day count knowing in your heart it would not be long before you would truly be able to go home and get the rest you so justly deserve. Why did you get cancer? Why did you have to die so young? These questions will never be answered and we must stop asking. I smile for Leigh who I know and love, not for a moment but for forever! I love you Leigh around the world and back forever Aunt Minerva

My hope is 2remain as dedicated 2living life as my cousin lived hers--with grace, beauty and honesty. "The Divine does not like to be shup up in a building. The Divine likes to be out in the open. It is right here in this very body. Each of us is a miniature universe, a living shrine." THE ART OF PEACE, Morihei Ueshiba Ur Cousin, "J" (Jeff) Visit www.jusfeelfly.blogspot.com for more thoughts...

After reading a little part about your sisters life, as well as how much she meant to you really brought me to tears. I wish I could of met her, she seemed to be such an amazing woman. -- Crystal

Leigh I don't go a day without missing your sense of humor that only you and i were able to get, (sister thing), i miss being able to pick up the phone just to say hey or to ask for advise from you for the 100th time only to hear the same thing again..most of all i miss you..just to be able to touch you again, to laugh with you again, to complain to you about my life and then to listen to you complain about yours. I miss everything about you..its been almost 1 year ago since you passed away and i am just now starting to realize that you are not coming back and why would you? I would love to have just one more day with you, even a few minutes just to look across the couch or where ever to see thoes beautiful blue eyes of yours, to touch you hug you to let you know how very much i have learned from you and am still learning. Leigh even though you are the baby you were always much more reasonable and level headed than me and i am so scared sometimes to go another day without you. i feel like i now only have one arm and one leg and i have to learn to walk all over again, only difference is i don't have you to lean on. I hope that you are proud of me and that when you come around me that you are able to smile and say hey thats my big sister...God how i miss you. i am trying my best to get my life of track so that i can see you in eternity, but its really hard to do especially when the only one person that kept me in check is no longer here to tell me what i am messing up on. I am sorry i wasn't the strong one for you especially when you needed me most when you had only months to live i just could not come around like i should have cause i just didn't want to beleive or look at it and if i just talked to ya on the phone i could pretend you were okay..Leigh i can't even remember your furneral i am worried that i may never remember. even i knew that you had cancer i never for one moment thought you would actually die from it not at 39 years old..pretty stupid don't ya think? I just want you to know that me and you are a part of each other always and the part of you in me is gone, it left or died when you did, i don't know if i will ever have that back..doubtful..i am lost without you and i just wanted you to know i was thinking of you and i do everyday thank you for all the joy you brought into my life and i hope and pray you are well and are no longer in pain..please keep an eye over me and if i start to mess up please find a way to let me know..you will always be my baby sister and there is no love like it in the world just wish i realized that sooner..all my love always your big sissy sheryl

leigh, today is oct. 2, 2008. it has almost been 10 months since you passed away. it is really hard to believe. i know that you are in a better place, however i wish that you didnt have to go so soon because i only got to know you for a short while. but in the short time that i did know you, you touched me so much in so many different ways and it was a privilege to have met you. you are the strongest person i've ever met and your endurance continues to inspire me everyday. we all miss you so much and wish you were here. i just want you to know that i love you, miss you, and im always thinking of you. love always, amanda tate

Leigh just wanted you to know that i am thinking of you every day that my life goes on. i am trying to do what you would have me do with children, but i need you guidance and your strength. i am so glad you are no longer suffering with that cancer and through the blood of Jesus Christ you will live eternally pain free you are finally free. I know if I live within God's law and his divine power and love I will once again see you. But i miss you so desperately and i just want to let you know that you lived the life Christ intended us to live and you inspire me everyday that I get up to put my faith and trust in him and all will be well. Baby girl you will forever be missed. I Love you Leigh and always will thanks for always loving me even when there were times that i know it was more than difficult. I have been honored and graced to have had you in my life for as long as i did and "THANKS FOR ALL THE MEMORIES" "I JUST HOPE THAT YOU I NEVER DOUBTED MY LOVE FOR YOU" ALL MY LOVE ALWAYS BIG SISSY SHERYL

By the way Leigh... I just called to say "I Love you"...and to say "How much I care"...and I do...Always and Forever my love for you will Always be your big sissy

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about you Leigh, especially lately, and I know that you would expect me to go on with my life I'm just not real sure how i am suppose to do that. I am trying though. Today has been a pretty good day it is nice and sunny and its been a real good day. I just wanted you to know that i am doing my best to get through this as best i can. I tell you though that it is so hard to do, i will never get past the fact that i can't ever talk to you or touch you again in this lifetime..even though i talk to you every day its just not the same. I just wanted to let you know your on my mind as usual and i love you more than you will ever know i hope and pray that i showed you that while you were here. you are always on my mind and i am so very proud you are my sister i love you Leigh and to me you will always be here you live in my heart and are a part of my soul...Love you Sissy

Today is Easter Sunday and I really miss my sister especially during the holidays because we all came to her house for dinner and brought a dish, we just had family for the most part. We would make each other laugh,enjoy each others children, and especially enjoy eating. my mom and I got a real pretty wreath to put at the cemetery so i will do that right after church. I think that Leigh would like it cause it is blue with real pretty flowers on it(blue was one of her favorite colors.) I just wanted everyone to know that i was thinking of you Leigh and that I Love you more than you could ever know. As i get ready to start cooking and to go to church I will carry you with me wherever I go..So happy easter baby sister. I Love you Forever & Always Sheryl

Today is Thursday March 20th, 2008 it has been almost (3) months since my baby sister passed away and I feel like it was yesterday. I went to her grave site for the first time this past Sunday to bring her Easter flowers and to talk to her. I mean I talk to her everyday. It's just that I have no memory of the funeral at all nor do I remember going to the burial site, do finally on Sunday I realized that I had to go not only out of respect for my baby sister, but for me to acknowledge that she is really gone. I have to say that was probably one of the hardest things I have ever done. To this day I pick up the phone to call her everyday for something that has happened that day when I would normally call to talk or to just get her input of a particular situation. To this day I hope that she would just walk through my door and tell me this whole thing has been a mistake and that she did not die. You see my sister was the world to me and I just cannot seem to let her go...If anyone can tell me how to be able to just let go please let me know..All I do know is that a huge part of me is missing and I don't believe I will ever get it back...Leigh I just want to let you know what a blessing you were to me and how very proud I am that you are my sister. I hope and pray that I will see you again on the other side because I cannot imagine just never seeing your beautiful face ever again. I love you Leigh and I pray that you are with me every day to keep me in line and so I can feel you around me. I miss you baby sis and I just wish I had more time to have let you know that I love you more than the words I love you even mean...Love sheryl

Leigh was not just a sister to me she was my best friend. I will miss her terribly. Just her smell,the way she laghed the enjoyment she got of just anything. I will miss her wisdom, i miss talking to her every day. A part of my heart is missing without her I feel like I am half of a person. Leigh you are truly missed and I love you more than words could ever express, but I am glad you are no longer suffering, I would just give anything for a chance to touch you and talk to you once again. I love you Leigh always and forever...I'll see you when I get there all my Love your Sissy.

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I am I and you are you, whatever we were to each other that we still are. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was.